Breathe Slow. 



Feeling kind of down right now. Not really sure why, but may be it's because I'm just tired. Shall pen some no-link thoughts down while I munch on my mini chocolate chop cookies before I go to bed.
Learnt some new things during sectionals today, and I cannot wait to show off the new rudiments I'd learnt to my kiddos. -laughs-

Think things are moving on too quickly that I could hardly realise it until I happen to stop and look back. Sometimes I don't really know which is the real me. The loud one or the quiet one? Sigh. Always not speaking through my brain. Don't even know why is it there. Tsk. I miss the old times. I miss everything from the past even though it sucked. I miss being able to pour all my feelings out randomly and people would understand I miss my good friends. 

Feels as if I shared too much with people, especially you. Like what for lah. Don't even know why I told you so much. Yah right, very mature of you... Only at the start. True colours shown finally. No one's going to trust you anymore. I never knew someone could be this rude, this childish. The sight of you just make me boil. Yes, make sure you don't ever talk about it again. I'll definitely rage. 

Oyasumi nasai.

(L),
Yuyin

BuZz~

Currently having Principles of Management tutorial. Decided to blog since I 'have nothing to do' now and I really cannot understand what my tutor is talking about, except for when he speaks singlish. D: So, its the ICA week this week, and I finally completed my POM ICA in the morning and just managed to print it out before my tutorial. Will be having ICA on Thursday and Friday as well. Need to start preparing and studying. Oh well., I almost forgot about Effective Communication's ICA is this Thursday so guess I'll stop here today and start to plan now. (:

BYEBYE!

(L),
Yuyin

Take the world on.


Shall do a short update while I wait for my maggie mee to be ready.
Had been rushing through my Principles of Management ICA over the weekends and it is still not completed. -bangwall-
Slept at 2am plus going 3am for two days and ohmymama, I felt damn stress lah. Its like tons of 'why you no start earlier' thought keep screaming in my head. And I almost completed my research on two managers yesterday night and I decided to change the person again because I-forget-why- ._.
And I woke up today morning and tried to crack my brain for a new manager, and I finally thought I got a suitable one after half an hour, but now........ -sigh- I want to change again, but I won't have time to finish by today. Dang. Now its more like trying to chiong finish this thing than to package it properly.
Crowned Procrastinaor.


(L),
Yuyin

Swings.



Will find some time to upload the pictures that I had taken over the week.
Just doing a short update here. Well, I don't really know what to blog about these days, and it's a little difficult to find time to blog as comapred to when I was in Secondary school. Now it's more like having the feel to blog and planning a blog post on my own mind but I can't find the time to do it. And when I have time to blog, all the emotions will be gone and it's hard to build them back to start a post. Oh well. But I really don't want to kill this place silently.  (if you get what I mean)

Few things happened last week and it affected my mood quite a bit.
Celebrated Mothers' Day on Sunday with me treating my parents for dinner at JCube. Mothers' Day didn't really end well for me, and I don't think it was a good on for my mum too. She found out about my long kept piercing, and I was rather surprised that she didn't ask me to close it or anything like that, but I'd got nagged and nagged since that day. And my mum seems to think that I'd been mixing with bad company over that past one month, and she don't seem to believe that I had my piercing done a few years ago. Although she's not saying much about it already, I feel that things are kind of different now. I don't think that I'll be opening up a lot to my mum for quite some time. I really hope things do get more comfortable quickly.
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I failed to decide on my CCA and thus am going to drag my decision until this coming Wednesday before I confirm my participation with my senior in the Symphony Ochestra. Well, just some thought about the CCAs that I'm rather interested. First, the Symphony Ochestra. Well, as I came from a secondary school band I do feel kind of sian if Im going to join the S.O. But looking at another point of view, there will be a strings section which I think is going to make music feel so much more different and I think it'll be fun. But what interest me most is the Percussion ensemble. It's more of samba music and practise hours are not as long as the main band. Guess I'll join the S.O. if ballroom turns me off or their dance is not much of what I want to learn.
I recieved a text on Sunday informing me that I'd passed the ballroom auditions and had to attend the welcoming party this wednesday. And I think that it'll be mostly on games and stuffs, judging from the attire. I don't really know if I should join them. but I feel that they aren't a very active group.......... 
But yah, if they do teach Latin then I'll definitely join them. Oh, and I went for Foreign Bodies audition last Friday but doubt I'll get in. Think I left quite a bad impression somehow, or maybe it was me and my think-to-muchs-

All in all, I still think I'm better musically, instrumentally, although I really am not very good at them too. Am hoping to find the talent in me soon. Pray hard that it won't take too long. -laughs-

Just typing whatever that comes to my mind.

(L) ,
Yuyin

Somewhere

Currently am on my way home after band. Decided to blog since the train ride home sems to take forever.

Didnt really enjoy myself during today's combines, i dont really know why. Felt really bored and rather unhappy because i played mallets during the whole practise, not really unhappy about playing mallets, but more like making me count and then change piece right before my part starts for about 2 hours really sucks. Really feel like joining the emsemble only, but doubt i can tranfers. Sigh. Shall settle my cca by this weekend after all the trials...

Still not really comfy in this new environment.

(L),

Yuyin

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没那么简单。

大家晚上好! 我现在正在肤面膜,所以决定update 一下。 今天八早九早就到了学校。上课上到四点多,感觉好累哦。下课后,约妈妈在学校的地铁站一起回家然后到蔡厝港逛了一下下。买了不少accessories 回家。到家后,我已很期待的心情把纸袋打开了。把我买了的东西拿出来后,想了一下。。。其实,我好相不会用到这些东西,也不见得我会经常袋。总觉得自己看到好看得东西时就会很没有耐心,会很kanchiong 地买一大堆没有用的东西回家,真是浪费。。。哈哈。我要开始学会省吃减用,不然会变成很bitchy 的独身子,身在福中不知福。 哈哈。 要开始学会存钱for下雨天(rainydays)。 读者们(readers), 如果之前像我一样,把钱当废纸的话(夸张), 明天开始要和我一起把钱当宝贝了喔~

可可。好吧,我也该去睡觉了。大家晚安,甜梦(sweetdreams )喔~

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世界上有各种各样的人,不要太相信别人,不要没有头没有尾吧过去的事都说出来。没有人会了解的。没有人需要了解我。

(L),

Yuyin

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Fresh!

Hello readers! This is going to be a short little update. Well life in poly is starting to get more and more busy. Or at least thats what I feel, since I'm always procrastinating. Hmm! Had been and will be going for CCA trials this week and next week. So far, I'd been to La Ballroom En Masse and NYPSymphonicOchestra . And I'm not too sure if I want to go for Foreign Bodies next week. Guess I'm slowly staring to get use to the new environment. Guess I'll end here today, have got to finish up my tutorials and start on my ICAs soon!
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Some pictures of my new classmates, and with Sherry on the day of the 46'11 meet up.


Front, Left to right: HweeYee, YiTing, Jaslyn, Cecelia
Back, Left to right: YuJia, WenQi, Me




WenQi and I, plus Henry at the back.


Left to Right: Jeslyn, Natalie, WenQi, Me












(L) ,
Yuyin

天秤座 (9/23 - 10/22) Libra 终极完美分析

优雅的天平在灯红酒绿中微笑转身，顾盼神采，洒脱如同水中的鱼。他们与红酒，水晶杯，晚礼服，钢琴曲是那么的相得益彰，漫不经意的吸引着公众的眼光…… 几乎所有人都有这样一种印象： 天平座的人善意、可亲，爱交朋友。于是大家也由此认为天平是群居生物，必然是害怕独处，喜欢热闹的。 但，事实并不是表面看来那样简单。 的确，天平是个和平使者。在公众场合可以很好地调节气氛使之均衡。气氛热烈时，他们会沉静的压住阵脚；气氛冷凝时，他们会运用不着痕迹的轻松幽默化解坚冰。总之他们不会随波逐流去助长气氛的冷热，而是像用天平称量物品一样，加减砝码，使之维持水平状态。 而他们在做这种加减的时候，动作是优雅的，态度是和悦的，看起来漫不经心不动声色。实际上，他们是很有心计的人，尽管众口难调，也可以找到一种万全的方式来使全局和谐起来。 但是这并不是说他们喜欢主宰，只是因为他们看不得失衡，那会使他们如坐针毡。 因此，尽管慵懒的天平座讨厌麻烦，讨厌得要命，他们还是会不由自主地担负起调节的责任。也许正因如此，使得天平在公众场合从未放松过自己。性格使他们承担了不必要的责任，无可推卸。 他们不吝惜金钱，却吝惜自由的时间和安静的休闲时光。像所有风向星座一样，他们喜欢自由，喜欢像风一样谁也捉不住他。 他们喜欢自在独立的空间。就算你是他最好的朋友，也不要老和他粘在一起，你要知道他并不喜欢如此，尽管他不会直接说出来。你也得相信，你的天平座朋友也许半年也没有音信，但是只要一见面，你还是他最好的朋友。因为他就是这种交友方式，你拿他怎么办？

'我懒得……' 这是天平座的口头语。他们懒得出门，懒得聚会，懒得应酬……所以他们并不是很喜欢参加party。倒是宁愿呆在家里上网，看书，画画。他们自身是均衡的，一个人的均衡总比一群人的均衡来的容易。所以他们喜欢独处。 通常，天平座的人会给人一见如故的感觉，因为他们有着温婉的微笑和优雅的举止。对初次见面的人，天平座往往表现出自己最讨人喜欢的一面：善解人意，大方，诚恳，健谈。但是这种热情劲儿不会长久。冷漠何时到来取决于你与他交往的频率。你越是粘得紧，他就冷得越快。因为他们喜欢'君子之交清淡如水'。不是他们不喜欢同伴，而是他们和人交往更多地关注了对方的情绪，总想着照顾对方心情，不要发生冲突，所以感觉像是在工作一样，无法真正的放松。 较之对宫白羊座，天平是另一种独立的个体。白羊是一种外在的独立，内心是热的；天平则是表面看似亲和力很强，内心却是任谁也无法融入的。天平的冷静，连他们自己也觉得惊讶。'我居然如此冷漠！太不可思议了……'他们审视自己的时候，感觉有点陌生。那是因为他们把内心世界掩饰得连自己都骗过了。 他们控制情绪的能力太强了。最亲近的人会感觉到，天平给人不露声色的隔离感，有时会被埋怨'太冷静了，我都不知道你在想什么！' 可是他们不是故意要隐瞒什么，只是出于本能。一个连自己都骗过了的人，你还能要求他对你坦白什么？ 他们不喜欢歇斯底里，不喜欢痛哭失声，不喜欢安慰别人也不怎么喜欢被安慰。因为他们懂得，谁也无法真正理解另一个人。 天平，其实是很独立的一个星座。他们在霓虹灯影里微笑，在灯火阑珊处寂寞。他们叫你懂得：孤独的最高境界是繁华。

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Damn true for me....

(L),

Yuyin

Some Things. 

Lessons started later and ended later today. Headed down to YewTee and missed YanYi's mini birthday celebration, though they left a piece of the cake for me. Had dinner at LotOne, Sakae Sushi with the kiddos. And yes, I suggested the chawanmushi challenge, and Javier took it up. And I won the first round because my cup was cleaner! :P Actually he did finish 2 cups of it faster than me. Haha. He was like literally drinking everything down, I think it took him about 3-4 gulps. Ordered more then 4 of us challenged together. Finally there's one day where Javier didn't spoil my appetite, instead, he was having some troubles with the wasabi. And i had a great laugh at him! Really enjoyed today's dinner, especially the 13 cups of chawanmushi spam. (:

Some pictures of today's dinner, all taken by Alex! 

Can't wait for tomorrow to come. Guess I'll have endless of things to share with Sherbunnyz! (:

(L),

Yuyin

Good Day.



It's the first day of school today. Met some classmates in the morning and head to class together. Today went rather well, although it was rather tiring. A little unused to moving around for classes and the lessons' speed. Hopefully I'd be able to cope well after sometime. (:

Pleasedon'tstalk.Tyvm. (:

 (L),
Yuyin

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Just some thoughts, 13th.

Decided to this little post about some thoughts and feelings I got these few days. I had my orientation yesterday and today, and I found it rather difficult to open and talk to people. Well, I think many people do feel the same way as we're moving into a new environment with new people, new characters and many other new things. I was really unused to being around with tons of unknown people. I felt rather surprised to see how people can get along with each other so quickly, like just within a few hours they're like BFFL. (okay, maybe not so kua zhang) But yah, you get what I mean. Met many different types of people these two days, and I don't think I can survive well with this stupid attitude of mine. Somethings are shown only on the surface and stuffs, and I really don't like it when people like try to act close to me, okay put it that way that they made me feel that way.
Maybe they were just being more friendly and stuffs, or maybe its just me being antisocial. Ohwell.


(L),
Yuyin

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Going to just do a short post here because I'm going out soon. Today is going to be my last day of holiday as my orientation starts tomorrow and it is going to be for two days. Still feels as though i just collected my results a week ago. -sigh- Didn't spend my months of holiday well, regret totally. After so many months, my room is still not cleaned up, tons of things undone. Just pretty mad at myself for being such a happy-go-lucky person. Forever not taking things seriously, taking my own sweet time to do things and stuff. Just hope that i'll change for the better when school starts. And yes. i must change my habit of being late all the time!



(L),
Yuyin

Something 'bout Love. 

Some pictures from the past few days. Had dinner out with my parents, and headed out for a birthday celebration on Sunday. Met mum at Jurong on Monday for lunch then went for my health check. Headed back to Jurong to have our hair colour changed. Results were more or less the same as when I first dyed (supposed to be red but as time passes, it turned brown). Looks rather black but kind of red under light.

Hair colour under flash.

Headed out in the afternoon yesterday with Audrey and Sunyu to Jurong Point. Had some catch up session with Audrey. Didn't take any pictures yesterday. 

What is life about? Its it just a game or an illusion? Just a waste of time and energy? 

Why live when we'll eventually die?  

(L),

Yuyin

Lost & Found.

It's been a week and two days since i last blogged. Hmm. Ended work last week, spent a day back at my uncle's place, but didn't take any pictures thus no kampung post. Spent my other days at home, either in front of the television, computer if not my piano. Went back to school today. Prolly heading back next week again, although I don't really feel like going back, but since some guy haven't went back for quite a few weeks, wanted some company, I shall put aside a few hours to head back.
Finally had a day out with Sherry yesterday. Lunched at lot and headed to town for shopping.
Some pictures of the day. Credits to Sherbunnyz !


Meanwhile, i'm going off to watch my drama! Byebye!




(L),
Yuyin

Base down low. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some pictures from my trip to Malaysia last week. Others are up on Facebook .

Kind of lost touch in blogging. Feels like there's no need to talk about anything here. Like there's no need to tell the world about your life, something like that. Haha. But I'm not going to stop, hopefully. Had been blogging since Secondary two. This used to be a place where I share about my feelings, happy and sad. And every year or so, during the holidays, I tend to look back on my older posts and reflect. If I didn't blog, i wouldn't even realise I was once a person like that. I wouldn't even notice I was once close to this person. Wouldn't even bother to look back to think and reflect and wonder why things turned out this way, good and bad. But well, look forward to the future! 

Planning to go for grocery shopping tomorrow. Well, partly grocery, and partly going out to look for things that I'd been wanting to buy. 

I'll be back!

 

Byebye! Wait for my Kampung post! Not sure if I'll do it though. (Kampung blood running out)

(L),

Yuyin

When everything disappears. 



Having a lot in mind again. But not going to pen my thoughts down today.

Just going to do a little short post. Will be leaving Singapore tomorrow. And I guess I will be and want to spend next week alone, or at least that's now I feel now.


Why tolerate? Why must we compliment others? Why can't others do the same for us?
Everyone with their fake-ness, empty talks and promises. Wonder how much more can I take.
Disappear and see who cares.

And you, please be reminded that girls are fucking sensitive. And that you sounded fucking rude. You shouldn't do that even if we're close. (Rather, you think we're close/ Trying to be close) I sense motive. But i can't really tell WHY.

BYE.

(L),
Yuyin

For that one special kiss.

 

Work work work and work. Went back to school on Tuesday and probably going back today as well. Heard that Mr Nonami would be coming today, with Coral and Westwood. So will be dropping by to view sectionals. Haven't been going back for quite some time already. 

Hmmm. Nothing much to talk about this week. Can't wait to quit my job then go out and have fun! More shopping, more outings! Not forgetting that my practical exam is next week, I've got to buck up on my scales. 

School is starting soon, and I'm so not looking forward to it. I'm soooooo going to miss the holidays! 

(L),

Yuyin

Forever and Always. 

Valentine's Day was on Tuesday. Spent my day back at Unity. Was rather happy that I did receive cards and chocolates from my juniors. Awww, how sweet can they be? I couldn't find my construction papers that day, therefore I didn't do any cards, unlike the past few years in school where I did a couple of cards for classmates and friends. I cannot really remember the scenario, but I remember telling Mr. Wong randomly that he don't have to celebrate valentines with his wife because everyday spend with her is like valentines day, something like that lah. Then he said that I was jealous. LOL. Took Raj's van to Yew Tee then headed home after that because of some stuffs. Got really worried and stuffs, but hopefully thins are like better now..
Had work yesterday... And am going to spend my day today at home.

Had some thoughts about - Friends.
Some people were kind of shocked to hear that I actually don't have much close friends whom I hang out with like always, or like always going out with them. Well, I think I don't know myself much either. Feeling like this then like that. Bitching all over the place within myself. If anyone could understand what I meant. To me, I don't think that you'll die if you don't have a close friend, who like know you a lot or what. Argh. I don't know how I should continue this topic. Not blaming anyone for this, I know it's just me and my own thinking.
I miss having someone to talk to, and I like it when people talk to me about their problems and stuffs. I miss how people use to care, like you're a somebody. But now it feels like a nobody. Everyone has a life, seems like some of my listening ears are rather busy lately. I miss school because I miss meeting my friends everyday. Seeing them so often that they can realise change in you, and so can you realise change in them. Unlike now...... Everything feels so different, so unfamiliar.

(L),

Yuyin

Wanted to blog, but decided to keep it in again. So there goes this post..... 

Bye! 

(L),

Yuyin

I Wish.



Went back for band today. Met up earlier with Sunyu to go over to Raj's place to fix whatever game stuff that that mister sunny wants then went to walk Raj's one month old puppy. Enjoyed playing with it. Guess I may be going down again to walk her next week! No pictures of her, but well, she's damn adorable, although she likes to nibble and stuffs. But don't all puppies do that? Hopefully mum agrees to allow me to keep it for a few weeks in March or April when Raj's going for reservist.

Hmmm. Working tomorrow with blisters on both my feet. :(

(L),
Yuyin

U-turn.


So 1st Feb marks the first day of work. And I guess the last part of my blog. (well just temporary)
Last minute change of branch and sort of took my time to the other outlet. Hmm. Enjoyed work with Kristi, my partner of the day, found out how much we have in common. Was totally shocked to find out that she will be going to the same polytechnic as me, and we are both in business school, not only that but also, she's a band member in her secondary school, and both of us are learning piano, and the same grade, taking exam in the same month (dates not out yet). Yeah, she's a clarinettist! (: Well, today went pass rather quickly, yet not that fast when working. Really wonder how my cousin could tahan all those tough stuffs when she was pregnant. Feeling really tired now, as if I just finished a whole day of band from morning till night. Not sure if I'll be going back to school tomorrow due to aching legs. Talking about this just makes my blood boil. Stupid brainless guy. (curse and swear)


Well, I'd often thought how long would my blog last. I mean, I don't think I will still be blogging at an old age. Since I'd started blogging since end of Secondary one, I tend to read back from the very first post during the holidays, except the current holiday. Most of the time I'll spend a few weeks reading them and then stop when I got bored of my own stupidness and childishness. Often reflect and think why I did those stuffs. And I felt like I was looking a my past like I was looking at someone else. Realised that I never really stop blogging, and I changed from having wordy posts and super vulgar posts (and some pin-pointings) to posts with my own pictures and cam-whores then to posts with less words and more tumblr pictures, to more of story crapping. Okay, I don't know how to continue this post from here kind of distracted. Hmm,made a sudden decision to have my last post soon, and continue blogging, privately then open up again some time later, when I'm more comfortable with things. Because I realised that there are some unexpected readers here, and that some are so smart and some dumb, to be able to guess about something and then talk as if they know me.... Oh ya, you know me, I know you too! -evil grin-

Back to the point where my blog will be back. Soooooooo I will be on a hiatus, and I will still be blogging, but not publicly for the time being ( because I can't kick the habit of blogging)

Feels as though I have a lot to tell and say, but I don't know what else to add onto this post. Okay, I'll be ending here, may be editing if I happen to want to add more. Andandand, my twitter is no longer private so go and follow me @IvyGYY uh! Will still be updating on twitter and facebook. : D



(L),
Yuyin

Lost.



Wanted to make good use of t last two months of my holiday to earn some cash. Went for interview today morning, and was suppose to head over to Justina's place to do some stuffs but we cancelled it in the end and I went home. Headed out again when Angeline called and ask if I wanted to go for interview with her. Will be starting work on Wednesday. Laziness is starting to kick in, and hopefully I'll be more hardworking, okay maybe that's not the word, aiyah just not so lazy lah. Hmmm.
Got the posting results today, got into my second choice. Not feeling really bad about it.

Don't know if you're even in my heart. 




Tell me what to say, tell me what to do, there's nothing that I wouldn't do.
Tell me where I am, tell me where you are, give me a map to find you.
Don't know where to go, don't know where you are, you're lost somewhere in the middle of my heart.
Don't know where to start, don't know what to find, don't even know if you're even in my heart.
Everything I say, everything I do don't mean a thing to you.
Every breath I take, every move I make wouldn't bring me to you.
I'm all alone in this world.
I need someone who loves me, I need somebody who cares, I need someone to find me.
Give me a space in your heat so we won't be apart, forever.

Messed up feeling inside Fated or what Will this give us a second chance?

(L),
Yuyin

Head to Toe.

Haven't been blogging for a week. So here are some of the pictures of Chinese New Year.

Day One.







Day Two.












Day Three.






Last minute meeting up with Angeline for job interview. Will update again!





(L),
Yuyin